Painful love!

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.” [1 Corinthians 13]

But sometimes in life we fall in love without being loved back. It's a disturbing feeling that makes you feel like crying, melting, or never waking up to the torture and pain your heart is going through. You just wish and hope you can be loved back. As much as love is a beautiful thing it comes out naturally; it cannot be forced.

 Not being loved back is like a blunt knife used to cut a tomato; making it slippery and it needs much effort that ends up damaging its pleasing shape. Well, that's the struggle we get when we want to be loved back; we struggle and strain, putting a lot of effort thus damaging our pure heart. If it were possible to unplug the feeling from the heart, that would be a solution without encountering much pain. However, that is not the case; getting over such a situation is very tough.

 I once had an experience not worth remembering. Met with this guy; I saw him and had a crush; I liked him and wanted to know him better. Well we clicked, we met most times talked and laughed. The feelings grew strong and stronger day by day. I fell in love and he could assert that he had the same feelings towards me which made me happier.  But that was not the case; he didn't love me. The pain was real, cutting my heart and mind in half stinging with every breath I took.

I have never understood why some people give one a hope of love when for sure they are not ready to commit or be in a relationship with them. It sucks! If you are the one, be honest with yourself and tell the truth; it pains but it sets one free. 

Sometimes it is not our wish or fault to fall in love for someone and they have no same feelings towards us. It is hard to accept the truth and move on but that is the only option we have. It is all in the mind, you can get over it; if I did, why not you? Take your own time, convince your mind and heart that it is not worth dying for and be strong enough to let go. It is not the end of love you will one day find someone who loves you back. Patience my dear is what you need to exercise, furthermore it is a virtue.